Over the weekend, I had my third monthly retreat. In some ways, it seemed like I had just had one, but the calendar clearly showed that another month had passed. I think my attitude showed it was time for me to get away as well.
Do you sometimes feel like your sin is right in front of your face, that your attitude is "off" and your words and actions are not what you aspire them to be? (see Romans 7:15) That was last week for me. Saturday morning I woke up tired and lacking in patience. Holing up in a quiet place with my Bible, journal and a couple of books was just what I needed--once again.
This book continues to challenge me. Even though I've already gone through it twice, I continue to underline new passages. In chapter three, readers are encouraged to truly consider what their desires are. I wrote in my journal that I didn't want to think about my desires, as that has been a key problem I've identified lately: that I have been too me-focused. But then I realized that is a desire--to seek to be more selfless, more patient, more nurturing. These times of reflection have been so helpful in getting me back on track!
I love the phrase of my post title, which is the name of a Beth Moore study on the fruit of the Spirit (Galatians 5). It's a desire I want to live out better--to seek to live beyond myself, to serve God and the people He puts in my path.