I have dozens of journal entries/blog posts brewing in my head right now. It's been really interesting how having a part time job has made me process my decision and commitment to stay home full-time with Nathan. I am definitely enjoying my work at the office, but I am also thankful it's a temporary set-up. Though I have many hard days and moments in my job at home, I am seeing anew that it is the place I feel I am supposed to be.
Since reading my friend Amanda's post on Tuesday, I've been reflecting on these words she shared after hearing a woman speak at her church: "She talked about the order of priority that needs to be established in our lives. Her order was, Jesus, Husband, Children, Job, and then ministry."
I've been thinking about what I am doing (and in some cases not doing) to intentionally nurture these relationships and fulfill my responsibilities.
my walk with God: morning and evening quiet times--brief but pretty consistent. In the mornings, I've been reading My Utmost for His Highest, but think I will switch to something else soon. At night I journal, pray for loved ones and read the Bible. My retreats were kind of haphazard over the summer, and I'm hoping to do an extended one sometime soon.
Eric--weekly date nights on Wednesday. We started that back when we were dating, and have done pretty well at keeping it a priority. Summers are usually "off" due to travel and our babysitters being gone, and we've just resumed these on a regular basis. We also pray together every Sunday night.
Nathan--This looks different right now during this season of part-time work and a new pace. We spend a lot of time together, but I'm definitely still working on the balance of quality and quantity! One thing Nathan really enjoys right now is reading, so it's fun to join him in an activity where he actual sits still (and on my lap!) for a few minutes.
job--Primarily, I am a homemaker. There is so much I want to be doing at home to make our household run smoothly. I feel kind of scattered with these details right now, and don't feel I've found a groove with getting things done around the house since starting my job, which is secondary to my job at home. I am helping out at the college for a few more weeks. Our event date is quickly approaching, and the details are numerous. It's reminding me in some ways of planning a wedding! It's fun, but there are many things to keep track of and people to coordinate.
ministry--This part of my life is expanding this year. I will continue to lead the middle school girls small group, and to serve in the nursery at church. Eric and I have already lined up some ways to be host others on a regular basis. In addition, I am going to be a MOPS group leader this year. I'm nervous and excited for that role, as we start in just a couple weeks, but I think it's a great way to support moms! (Anyone else out there in MOPS?!)
I recently made a list of all the things I'm involved in, which includes a couple things not written here. It was clear to me that I have a pretty full plate right now, and I asked the Lord to help me to not add any more commitments. Well, wouldn't you know it? This past week, two other possibilities have come up, and I agonized over each decision. And though I wanted to say yes to each of them, I felt the Lord telling me that there are many good things, but they are not always the *right* things, or perhaps not the right timing. Sometimes saying no allows us to better serve where we've already said "yes." So I need to trust in that, and to be faithful in these other things He's called me to.
My mom's arriving later today, and she and I will be heading off for a weekend getaway! I'll be back on Tuesday to share details of our adventures. I hope each of you has a wonderful weekend. (By the way, my comments have been and will be a little sparse this next week. I look forward to catching up soon.)